Emily in Spain: Crying my eyes out

That is what I am currently doing. Today was my last day in Spain. The words finally are real now. I knew this day was coming and kept throwing around numbers, but it didn't sink in until today.

I had a great day enjoying the city with Megan and Kevin and spending a few last meals with Carmen. She has been an integral part of my enjoying Sevilla so much. After dinner her daughter and family came in to say goodbye and the tears started. Little Patricia and the rest of the kids.

Megan and I wrote Carmen letters for the things we wouldn't be able to tell her without crying. We passed the night talking, laughing, crying.. I felt like I was going in and out of hysterics.

I keep crying and just thinking, how blessed am I to have lived with a woman so wonderful who is making it so hard for me to leave her. What a gift I have lived with this semester. Carmen is just wonderful and I am going to miss her so much. This process would be so much easier if I knew I would see her again. She came into our room and seemed so sad about it being empty, and told us that when we grow up and have kids we can take the family back to visit her. Oh I am just bawling. You guys have truly seen it all in this blog now.

I will write one last post when I get home about my whole experience here. It has changed my life. I feel confident to do anything now. Like the eccentric Judy Cotter says, you have to have some "cojones" once in a while and this semester gave me my cojones.

A part of me will forever be in Sevilla.

Thank you to everyone who has read this blog. I hope I could teach you a little about this wonderful place.

It is midnight now and I am going to get a little sleep before getting up at 4 a.m. to catch my 7 a.m. flight to Madrid.

Hasta luego, amigos!